This will all be worth it in the end....

To put it simply there are people in my family who feel my only option to lose weight is to have weight loss surgery.  I have nothing against people who do the surgery, because it is a lifestyle change, and it's not a quick fix.  I've talked a lot with a close friend and she has to work just as hard as I do, sometimes harder for the results to see.  Well I am trying the best I can, and I know people can see it so I'm going to continue to do that.  Someone that has been a huge inspiration to me is my step-dad who had his 2nd heart attack last summer, and underwent open-heart surgery.  I saw everything it did to him, and he had to make lifestyle changes.  He lost right around 50lbs, and has kept it off, so he is such an inspiration to me.   So last night I called him to tell him about how I've lost 5lbs, and 10inches so far in 2 weeks, and he said to keep up the good work and he was proud of me.  Well rumor is going around that I can be put on my mom's insurance here in a few months, and the only reason she wants to put me on it is because I NEED the surgery.  Well I told her how I lost 5lbs, and the 10inches and her response was that I can't lose much because I need the surgery.  Who the hell tells there child that?  Who basically tells there child stop trying so hard and reaching new goals and such, because your only option is to have WLS?  I felt hurt and confused by that, because I can't imagine saying something like that to my child.  So I got off the phone with her, and called my stepdad, and he told me not to take it personal and to just keep on busting my ass basically and everything will be okay.


Lets say I do get to my goal weight, I truly wonder if she will still be saying to me "Oh your only option is surgery Katie."  I hope not.  I'm going to continue to work hard, and do what I know is right.  Just needed to vent for a few....

A mopment of happiness...

So this morning we went to Walmart to pick up a few things, and I had to go to the bathroom.  Well I've always hated going into those bathrooms, because as soon as you walk in the restroom there is a huge full length mirror, and well I always hated looking at myself.  Well I walked in the bathroom, and I take that quick glance at myself and I couldn't believe what I saw...My face is a lot thinner, and my stomach/waist area has slimmed down quite a bit as well.  It was one of those moments where wow this is actually happening, and I'm achieving something so good! 

So my plans for today are to give Morrison a bath, workout, work on Accounting homework, laundry, and take Joey to work.  Hopefully I can get these all done today, and feel accomplished.  Well I'm off to find some food to eat, I'm starving and haven't ate yet today.  Oh and I need to work on giving up my diet coke habit....I'm down to about 1 a day, so I'm slowly getting there.

How this journey started?

I was at the point in my life where I knew I needed to change, but I didn't know how to or what to do?  When I say change I mean my weight.  Over the last 5 years I've gained right around 100 pounds, which doesn't make me happy, but I realize this is where I am today, and I never want to be in this position again.  I'm working on making changes that are healthier and more fulfilling for me.  Well this all started when we took our vacation to KY the end of July.  Part of the reason I knew I had to change was because I knew my husband was very worried about me, and my health and I had to start taking care of me for once.  I've never done that before, but now was the perfect time.  I was able to get to spend time with my cousins Mary and Emily who are in high school, and they have been such a great support system.  Whenever I'm working out I text those 2 girls, and they are there supporting me and cheering me on from hundreds of miles away.  I am truly blessed to have them as family.  Also I have my friend Kristin who lives near me, and were in this journey together.  We talk daily about our struggles and achievements with weight loss and healthy living, and I can always count on her for support.  If it wasn't for her, I don't think I would still be working out.  Today marks 4 weeks of working out, and out of those 4 weeks I worked out 19-20 days of those.  Never in a million years did I think I would get past week 1!  But I did, and I've even grown to love the elliptical machine.  Such an amazing machine that burns lots of calories, gives me a great workout, and I leave feeling refreshed and HAPPY!  A little about me is that I was once eating fast food daily, and I am down to about 1-2 fast food meals a week, and I"m hoping to start next Sunday of either none at all, or just once a week.  This is a hard habit to break, but I know I can, considering I went from eating it daily to only 1-2x's/week.  I'm also learning how to eat healthy food, and coming up with healthy meals to eat that won't break the bank or leave me feeling like I wasn't satisfied or not happy with what I just had.  I'm slowly learning how to make more things, and I'm also realizing that I can still eat what I want I just have to learn portion control and to only make certain things a treat, and a treat should be considered maybe once or twice a month.  This is all a learning process, and I can't wait to keep on updating everyone on my journey.  It's been one hell of a ride so far, that I can't wait to update ya'll more.

Peace & Love,
Katie